All Under One Roof

Went to book an appointment at the doctors to see a counsellor. Bit shocked to hear that the 1st available appointment would be the 12th March. The receptionist asked if that was OK and begrudgingly I bit my lip and nodded. She then asked if I was sure as she could clearly see the distress in my expression. 'You need to see someone soon don't you?' she said. 'Please' I replied then she wondered off to grab a pen and paper. 'Write down your name, age and telephone number and I'll see what I can do' So I did and handed back the piece of paper. She then goes to the phone and after about 30seconds, she returns, 'come round' she said, so I make my way to the reception door. She opens it then leads me to the phone. 'The lady you'll be speaking to is called Kate'

The next few minutes seemed to last forever and I've never felt so uncomfortable in all my life.

She asks in a soothing and soft toned voice what's wrong. I stutter, trying to find the words. 'Erm well I've got alot going on at the moment. I'm a self harmer and I can't cope'
She then goes on to ask some more questions i.e. Am I sleeping properly, what's my appetite like etc I also explain that I've not been taking my meds.

By this point my eyes are welling up as I stare aimlessly out of the surgery window hoping and praying that I don't break down 'Don't cry' is all I can think of. 'OK, well all the support workers are in on Monday and we can sit and have a chat about it then. I'll take your details. Are you going to be alright over the weekend' she says to which I replied 'I should be, I'll be working' But she then says 'Where are you living, is there anyone suppor....' I cut her off as I know where this is heading. 'I live at home with my mum and she's part of the problem' I felt the trickle down my face, I tried so so hard to not cry but saying those words just made me want to burst into tears.
So anyway, I'll be waiting on a phone call Monday, just hope I survive the weekend. Will also be picking up my prescription too. This is good right? Positive? So why am I not convinced?

Work tonight and tomorrow is gonna be murder........